Sep 12, 2023

I kept looking back at old screenshots to remind myself of what I had lost. I remembered Jaze and my IMC friends back then, and how secure + comfortable I felt with them. I also got to see how my life was like back then. It made me really sad throughout the entire day because I had lost people I was so secure with. People who I thought would always be by my side and stand by me. I guess that's all over now and I'm here. I chose this path, not gonna lie.

This day was extremely weird, and draining. I miss having a safe space and I wish I can have people I can lean back on. 2023 has been exhausting for me because my friends (and even 5-year-strong best friend) have left my side, and losing people remains my greatest fear. I feel like I've been such a lousy friend.

I really, really regret not listening to my friends back then.