Dec 1, 2023

Something felt very off today. I can't put my finger on it, but I feel like something bad happened. Even in the afternoon, I felt so anxious. I'm also so sleepy today, I slept at 5 and stood up late with my friends.

In the evening, I wasn't sure if I was going to go out with my friends or if I'm just going to stay at home and deal with my emotions. I chose the latter, I don't really want to come to my friends and be broken (again, for the nth time) and I just dealt with my emotions as I genuinely would. I'm anxious for tomorrow, but I know what I'm doing and I don't really care about anything anymore.

I tried backreading, and again I remember that there's a reason why I shouldn't do it anymore. Things are way different now, and it shows.