A Holiday at Home, Alone

I'm surprised that I spent the majority of the day just staying at home. I didn't get into a call with anyone, I didn't have anyone to go out with on Christmas Day either.

Aside from talking to a few people on Instagram and Discord, I didn't socialize that much with anyone today. Everything seemed quiet, maybe too quiet. It's weird, I met so many new people this year and have come across so many things only for me to end up mostly-alone at the end of the year.

And, maybe I like it this way.

I'm comfortable with the peace I have today. I didn't stress over anything, nor was I bothered by someone/something. I was perfectly content, I could do whatever I want, and I spent my time how I wanted it to be spent.

Truth is, I've dealt with a lot of things these past few years and a lot of them had some drama in one form or another. Really weird and painful stuff. From a girl that wanted me to be their someone quickly, to a person messaging me with lazy replies, and a person that seemed nice but didn't pan out, I've been through A LOT this year, for nothing. All that struggle for me to not be with anyone. Maybe this is good enough for now. I could use the peace and quiet.