Apr 30, 2024

I woke up at a really weird time, 2 a.m. and I just spent most of my early morning just talking to someone over Discord. I wasn't in a call, which was kind of disappointing, and someone took too long to reply sometimes. I don't know why they took too long, but they said that they were busy. While I was reluctant to believe it, I got annoyed for a bit. I was initially going to offer someone breakfast, but it didn't push through because I waited too long on them. So, in the morning, I just made breakfast on my own with pancit canton and eggs. After eating breakfast, I got started to work on my morning tasks.

All of my things in the morning were fairly easy, but I had a minor fuck-up that was super funny. I felt a bit embarrassed, sure, but I found myself laughing at my blunder. It was just extremely funny. Someone was busy doing other things so I was just focused on my tasks. Over lunch, I had an argument with them that just grew and grew. I didn't know if they were still going to talk to me, so I kept calling them and I had a hand in making the argument bigger than what it needed to be. I also said some really hurtful stuff about their insecurities and money, and handouts. The origin of this argument was an old IG Story about Angela and a fake wedding, and when they were arguing, I just gave them a thumbs up emoji, then they threatened to leave, and that started it all.

We spent the majority of the afternoon arguing, going back and forth on things, and not really making up. I apparently had a horrible time apologizing and kept standing my ground, because my original argument was true and I believed in it vehemently. I can't be offering all this help for someone that'll just leave. And them easily leaving after all that time and effort spent was just unfair. Personally, I was scared of losing them and I couldn't really tell them that. Around 5 p.m. or so, we eventually were able to make up and say sorry to each other. It was a lot of effort but we eventually patched things up.

The evening was just them excusing themselves for dinner and me lying on my bed. Since I was really sleepy by then, I just passed out and woke up a few hours later at 11 p.m. When I woke up, I got a lot of messages from them asking about various things like me leaving the server and things. I can't believe they noticed that, so it was surprising. But regardless, we were able to have VHH in her night shift and had a good time.