May 18, 2024

I woke up reaaaaaallllyyy late today. I don't really remember what time I slept last night, but I was so tired from it all. I remember waking up at around late 10 a.m. and then sleeping again, only to wake up at 12:40 a.m. Shit, I was doomed because I knew I was kind of late for my Saturday meditations class. I tried my best to rush and prepare all of my clothes, stuff, outfits. All of my stuff wasn't in proper order, like my watch wasn't fully charged, my phone's battery was almost dead, and I had to prepare in 10 minutes or less. Plus I have to book a ride home, which was always a pain in the ass.

When I did book a ride, I had the most unfortunate trip yet. I knew that we were supposed to go on a different path, and that the path that we went on actually delayed everything by 40 minutes! It was a horrible, horrible 40 minutes through the worst traffic, heat, twists and turns that Metro Manila could offer. I know I didn't take that long in getting to my meditation classes, and I was so baffled by today's trip because it had been so unlucky.

I still tried to rush everything, but nothing happened. When I went into the meditation hall, the doors were closed so I just sad down on my chair in the 2nd floor to "try" to meditate. I wasn't feeling okay, and I was still slightly panicking, so that was a bust. I still attended lecture and went to inform my group's coordinator that I won't be able to make it next week for my summer outing. I went home as usual and just tried to make it up to myself in the afternoon and evening by playing games and relaxing.