May 20, 2024

I accompanied my friends for a call and we were supposed to watch a lot of scary videos. But they mostly slept through most of our time in the call. I tried to play a few videos in the background, however, like some a video from 4Plus. But they couldn't watch through the bulk of it at first and kept sleeping. So my mind was just somewhere else, doing God knows what. We continued the video from 4Plus before we left the call and I got my sleep. I left at around 5 a.m. and felt really groggy after waking up. By morning, however, I had to prepare to leave for an in-person work session at an office in Makati. It was just me from my team going there, so I felt very alone and alienated. I had some troubles getting there, but was able to arrive just fine. I just had barebones tools in front of me: a terminal, sudoer access to a server, and a basic Windows install. I tried my best to continue my work under these weird conditions. I talked to my friends on the side. I got stuck on a weird bug. It was lunch time and I ordered food outside and ate a McDonald's, which surprised me because I hadn't eaten in a McDonald's in a long, long time. I just ate food while watching some videos about hikkikomoris and NEETs. I reflected to my time as a NEET and honestly felt proud that I was able to get out of my 4-month stint as one. I remember getting sucked into moderating subreddits, playing Doki Doki Literature Club, and Omori because those are the only games my old laptop can handle. Another instance of me being outside of my physical surroundings and thinking of me being somewhere else. When I came back to the office, I had thought of a troubleshooting method and it did work. But the problem was still there and I was powerless in doing anything about it. I fixed everything I can and I literally just stared at the screen. I was playing this playlist on Spotify titled "SIARGAO VIBES 🏝" and my mind was just escaping into this party by the beach. I don't know why, but it just felt right spacing out. I spaced out more while downloading for a really large file and extracting it, which took more than 1 hour and 30 minutes. In the meantime, my coworker to the left of me noticed the Omnitrix design on my watch and I showed them the Omnitrix app, and they laughed at how no one can bully me because I can transform into an alien. Eventually, I fixed everything by the end, though. I just hate tinkering in anything PHP. I overtimed by an hour, even though I thought that this would be an easy job. It was just that things were prepared horribly, I could have left home at 3 p.m., but whatever, I went home at around 7 p.m. after having difficulty in getting a ride home. I ate dinner after I got home and didn't really go into a call with my friends immediately. I waited for them to be done with their thing, and apparently they were watching this anime titled "My Love Story with Yamada-kun at Lv999" which is why they took a while in joining a call. Eventually, we both got into a call and we played Sons of the Forest for 1 hour before we ended the night and left the call. I just did random things and relaxed in my free time after that.