Aug 14, 2024

Today was surprisingly pretty bad, honestly. I woke up at around 1 a.m. and messaged someone, and we talked for a bit before I ultimately passed out and woke up at 7 a.m.

My morning started really early, which was 7 a.m. I did my morning stuff early and messaged someone. We played Sky for a bit and they showed me how to calculate my height in Sky. We had fun in Sky for a bit, we mostly did our dailies and got candles. We ended our Sky gameplay after we both got separated trying to go to grandma's event for some free candles. We didn't go to VHH so we didn't do anything much else after that aside from just talk through chat. My day and morning continued as normal, I was just doing my usual round of tasks at work and everything was chill for the day.

During lunch and halfway through the day, someone didn't really talk to me that much. I was suspecting that she was just talking to some other guy. That kind of made me feel anxious and I just got a bad case of anxiety after that. Since today was a chill day, I decided to spend the rest of it outside. I finished my work tasks and timed out for lunch. I used that time to commute from my house to Starbucks on 32nd Street, my usual hangout. It was just me and the trip was fairly quick, even though it was kind of hot that day. I still had the same problem of not finding a comfortable seat, but eventually, I had a good couch seat freed up hours afterward.

Someone also messaged me during this time out of nowhere, she just left me on read for hours. We got back into talking again and this time they tried to offload their problems onto me by not having money for the vet and other things. She also asked for free food so she was just waiting for that. She was bored and wanted to play Kiosk. After work, we got into VHH after I tried to persuade them to try it out despite there being people around. She played Kiosk for a bit and then she left VHH because it was too noisy. We just talked until she didn't reply anymore at 9 p.m.

I went home in the evening at around the same time. I tried my best to feel okay, but something was just off today. It's like something was missing. I know what it was but it just sucks to not have it anymore. I just got home and continued to stay up for BFT.