Spiraled into the Abyss

Today was mostly me playing Genshin all day. It would start out okay, but things just got really bad at the end. I completed most of Nilou and Nahida's story quests and eventually got into AR 50. I continued playing for a bit and took breaks in between. Since I had some pending server migration stuff, I decided that now was a good time to do some work because I wouldn't bother some devs with my downtime.

Eventually, things were looking great until I decided to pull for Yelan. I kept thinking that I was so close to winning her but kept getting the short end of the stick. It eventually spiraled into the evening with me continuing to buy more and more primogems for pulls, welkin, the banner pass, and all that wishing. When I reached the end, my total was around 4,235 Pesos. I nearly felt defeated when I noticed how much money I had at the start of the day versus how much was left at the end. I felt like puking and I got that same nauseous feeling I get when I overspend. I got Yelan at the end, but I just felt sick to my stomach. I eventually capped it off when I got her and just tried my best to build a team. Surprisingly, I got Mona twice today even though I've never had her before. I got a good team at the end, but it still didn't wash off any sick feelings I had.