"Meh" After All

After a long trip from QC and around BGC, I eventually made it to Premier The Samgyupsal - Bonifacio Stopover BGC. I was surprised to find out that there was a long line and it still had a queue of people. I found out that they don't serve solo diners and that I would have to pay for 2 people even though I'm just 1 person dining. Since I barely ate anything all day, I just said "fuck it" and paid for it. I waited for my turn to be called and got seated.

The food was okay, it was just your standard samgyupsal. They didn't have a lot of sauces, though, and they had no cheese. I liked the Gyeranjjim (egg souffle thing) and it was pretty good. They served, like, 1 big tray full of meat which had chicken, beef, and pork, and since I hadn't eaten all day, I was able to finish all of that. I also ordered a plate of various beef on top of that, which was alright. I also listened to some of the songs the restaurant was playing and it was mostly NMIXX so I didn't sing along to a lot of the songs. I did hear some Seventeen songs playing and I sent those to the group chat I have with Meryll and Max. I felt really full after eating and the bill was extremely expensive, even though it didn't seem worth it to me.

I had been wanting to try Premier for such a long time and it was kind of a letdown. So much for that.

I walked around BGC afterward to burn some of the food I had eaten. There I was, again, walking around BGC with an anxious mind. It's been 2 years and nothing's changed. Here I am again. I found it funny and also cruel that here I was at the same point in my life, despite the many struggles, hardships, and effort I put in; through the many experiences I've had, the games we played, here I was again—alone, not talking to anyone, lonely.

I just tried to talk to myself as I was waiting for a ride home. I got home without issue and slept shortly afterward. I think I slept at around 1 a.m. or so and then woke up at around 3 p.m. in the afternoon.

Nothing much happened for the afternoon and evening. I couldn't make up my mind on what to do so I mostly ended up moping around. In the very late evening, I had time to reflect on my situation and I cried a bit. It was a surprise because I finally cried after days of not crying.