sentiment_very_dissatisfied
Dec 10, 2024
Tue
In the Middle of the Night
My day was already peaceful and I had slept on time last night. Suddenly, around 12-1 a.m. or so, I woke up and used the bathroom. Some thought entered my mind and it was a sentence that someone said to me in a letter they sent years ago:
Here's to hoping we stick with each other whatever happens.
Yikes. That absolutely ruined me. I remembered that line and just began crying and crying. I tried to find the full letter and I just had a big cry after reading it once again. It was so painful. It was another "big cry" but I didn't expect it coming and it just hurt. I tried to calm myself down, and told myself to just focus on my own future and that better things were coming. After a good cry and talking to myself about everything again, I stopped crying and was able to go to sleep, albeit at a later time.
The whole day was still kind of shitty since I didn't feel okay. I was able to go through work, though, and the evening was nothing noteworthy.