sentiment_satisfied
Feb 1, 2025
Sat
The first of February started out pretty sad. I opened that “Playlist in a Bottle” thing that Spotify had and I saw the things my early 2024 self sent to me. When I opened it, it was pretty okay. A couple songs that were featured were still songs I played in my usual rotation of songs. When I reached the end, Spotify revealed a note from my past self and it read:
Please still be friends with her :(
That immediately broke my heart. I was probably thinking at the time that I would still be friends with her, or maybe I would not, hence the sad face. Whatever my thinking was, uncovering it made me pretty sad because I failed my past self. It just highlighted how sad and different life has been without her.
Since I had no one to tell it to, I initially posted it on my IG Story for my Close Friends list. Then I remembered that I was still friends with Jinn/Flame on Discord and I told them all about it. It was hard to admit to them but they eventually told me some words of encouragement and told me that they still play Sky.
It honestly sucks but, aside from screenshots and my journal entries, Jinn is the only remaining link to that time in my life. Having that weight is just sad, but I have to keep going.
I wrote a blog post about love since I couldn't sleep and I stayed up until 5 a.m. or so.
When I woke up, I just browsed the Internet, commented on Reddit, and did a few miscellaneous things. For most of the day, I was optimizing the code for my website and I fixed a lot of major bugs and refactored a huge chunk of the code. I also mostly listened to Girls' Generation's songs the entire afternoon, and I haven't listened to their old songs in so long.
I spent the whole day just coding for my website, even though I should halt any work on it aside from my daily journal entries. Because of that, I didn't get to have any time to learn or pick up much DevOps material. The day and night continued with me trying to fix this custom image bug that I couldn't solve, no matter how hard I tried. This went on for the entire night.