Stressed as hell, but alive

Friday was so damn busy, it was insane.

The day started out with just me, chilling and just re-reading the blog post I had written for any grammatical mistakes. I also talked to Kai for a bit and she says that she read it and we started talking for a bit. I tell her that I really doubt I'll get married but also told her of a pact I have, but I doubt that pact will follow through anyway. Then she tells me that we both have a pact, too. I had a pact with Kai? What the fuck? Apparently, it was just to try and be with each other when they turn 25 and if we don't have a partner yet. It made me laugh a bit because I thought it was some big ticket thing like get married lol. I told her that it wasn't that serious anyway but, to her, it seemed serious enough. I doubt these 2 pacts I made will follow through anyway as I'm still believing that I'll die alone, love-less haha. Fuck it. We have a light conversation until they taper off.

I also chat with someone in the background and eventually get tired at around 3 a.m., so I get my rest. The morning was pretty chill, and someone messaged but I didn't get a reply back.

For the rest of the day, it was just me stressing about my tasks and the amount of things I have to finish in less than 7 hours. I barely had lunch since breakfast was good enough for me. I had very late lunch and finished just half of my stuff before having lunch.

A lot of things piled up in the afternoon, too. Friday was so eager on stressing me out. I had to order food and groceries for me and my sister, and that coincided with a stressful bank transfer and a countdown to order groceries because of Grab's free delivery thing. I was super stressed and my mind was so overloaded with things. My main priority was work and, thankfully, the groceries arriving fine and okay, and eating my late lunch helped. But I was super stressed because there was another issue that popped up which just piled on top of so much stuff I had to do.

This whole endeavor stretched until the late evening, until 8:30 p.m. where I had overtimed for free because I was so stressed and busy, that I had to catch up on so many tasks. My head was honestly spinning at the end.

I was glad I had NO OTHER OBLIGATIONS after that. No one to answer to, no one to feel indebted to. It felt to nice to just relax and decompress after all that. My anxiety was so high after doing all that work, that it took me a while to fully calm down and get my stress levels down.

I'm just glad that, at the end of the day, I was able to accomplish all that I could on my list. And I actually did follow through my promise to my sister of ordering groceries on Friday. So that was nice.