Near Collapse!

I started today still being on call with someone as we have been in since yesterday. We mostly just had a chill time, just ranking Aespa albums/releases and having them on a tierlist. I also got some time to talk to Mon for a bit during this time, too, which was nice. Also, someone showed that bouy pic that she took, and then we eventually got off call after that.

For the rest of the time that I was still awake, I focused on completing the specs and setting up the tenant flow, and I pretty much spent all night fixing it, setting it up, and I was confused a bit as to how it all wires up together and what API to call. Since things were in a rush, I just figured that some calls would go someplace and I just set up a barebones implementation of the dashboard, too. After doing all that for the night, I called it a day, sent some progress to my team, and then got however much sleep I could get.

I didn't know today would turn out to be a horrible day. Apparently, all the stuff that I did was wrong and that was an old onboarding flow, which was pretty much useless. Also, our backend dev had taken control of the frontend code that I was making and pretty much started their own implementation of the chat UI and stuff, which kind of surprised me because of how sudden and without notice it was. No clear communication was had whatsoever this day, and even someone piled on by just dumping and ranting their problems to me so suddenly. Since I didn't have much on my plate anyway and that the backend had taken control of my work without even notifying it, it doubled to the stress. I was so overwhelmed with so much happening at once that I just thought of the worst things. I was so mentally frayed today, it was insane. My mental health had gone down the absolute shitter and I was dealing with so much stuff at once. Thankfully, someone had let up on me and they just went off so I could focus on my work. I was still bothered so I did some things to feel productive, even a little, and helped out on a few things as well as doing some cleanup on the code. This continued up until the evening.

Come evening, it was time for me to book a ride for someone and I so we could go and see the Backrooms (2026) movie. I told the InDrive guy to take a quicker route, but it seems he went the wrong way and even complained about it, and I was absolutely not having it. It took him so long—more than an hour, even—just to get to my place from someone's place. It's not my fault he went the wrong route. When I got in, it seemed that we would be running late to see the movie but I had a feeling that we'd get there on time. For some fucking reason, the guy kept braking while on the way. It seems like he overheard us and was purposefully driving slowly. The road was wide open and he kept hitting the brake so often, it added to my stress and irritation.

Thankfully, we at least got there relatively on-time. We barely made it and arrived at the start for when the movie would show. We also took a while because they served our popcorn so slowly, it was actually irritating. We got to the movie relatively early, as Luan explains, and we watch the film. I mostly liked it, some parts weren't explained at all, which surprised me. But it was fine and I needed something “fine” after what a shitshow this day had become. We chill and walk around SM Megamall for a while as I mostly just hear Luan and someone talk while I was trying to calm down and recuperate my mood. After walking a bit, Luan decides that it was time for him to go home and I book a ride for someone and I, too.

We eventually both got home okay and someone also makes it home in time for work, which was good. I was able to continue work after logging back in and I was able to finish a few, minor features with the help of my coworker friend as he helped me with some API stuff since he was handling some parts of the backend.