Aug 19, 2026

Today started with me trying to wake up someone. I had a feeling that they had slept through their alarms and I just had this feeling to wake them up. They were able to wake up and they told me this weird dream that they had, which just made me feel a bit alienated, but whatever. I was able to sleep and I woke up just in time in the morning. I got my raincoat on and it actually wasn't hard for me to find a ride. What surprised me more was that I got to the office early, and that's after I took a while to take off the raincoat. Today felt like a nice starter, honestly. My coworkers and I went out for lunch and I treated them out. They were all excited for the big reveal and they seemed a bit surprised that I didn't reveal anything groundbreaking like me having a kid, getting married, being promoted, or anything. I did tell them the truth: I wanted to have lunch with them and I wanted to appreciate the time that we have now. The whole theme of the past few weeks has just been change, or things having the capacity to change. Moments like these, where I have my coworkers, friends, and the people important to me here, are few and far between. I am actually happy with the people I'm surrounded with and close to right now. I appreciate them because I know I'm in my good times. I'm journaling more because I know I'll look back at these stories and miss the people in them. I'm trying to treasure every moment I have with the people I have now. After paying the bill, we walked around and checked out some home stuff, but I didn't really buy anything. I treated a coworker to some yoghurt ice cream because they were the first to figure out the cipher in the calendar invite I sent. I had a lot of work stuff to do in the afternoon, and I cleared a strange misunderstanding I had in my head about my schedule. While it's funny that things won't change soon and I was just overdramatic for essentially nothing, I actually don't mind it. I needed to learn to appreciate what I have now anyway. For the rest of the afternoon to evening, I didn't really do much. I mostly talked to someone and asked her about the chapter that she's in her life, we ordered some Burger King which actually took me a while to eat, and I had to eat most of it at the office pantry alone. I was the last of us to leave, too, which made me feel a bit melancholic in the evening since I was alone again, but it's fine. I talked to someone a bit before heading my way and I just chilled for the rest of the evening. I got caught up on a few things and I'll try to be more proactive so that shit doesn't pile up again.