A Confession in 5 Days or Less

This is pretty freaky to me.

I met someone new again and they confessed to me at around the 5-day mark. It's pretty freaky to me because, of all the 4 people that have liked me in the past 2 years, all 4 of them confessed in less than 2 weeks. Like, what the hell did I do? Of course, I'm slightly panicking because I know confessions that come this fast never led to anything good. This is my 4th time on the wheel and I can already see that there are warning signs.

I didn't know who to tell and I was in a weird, shocked state so I told my 2 closest friends at the moment about this, and Rachel reaffirmed the same thoughts: nothing good that will last comes fast. I felt called out, but it was really true. In the past experiences I've had of a confession that came way too early, it all ended horribly. So here I am, thinking whether or not what I did for them was what got them into me in the first place, or if I'm just a great, genuine all-arounder and a nice person to spend someone's whole life with.

I'm pretty sure it's the former.

I am a bit sad of this pushing through as this would probably end all of the things I'm comfortable with now. I'm not even sure I can fully trust the person yet. They have a lot of unknowns and, of course, virtual chemistry doesn't really translate well to physical chemistry. I'm not comfortable with them at all and sinking my emotions into this will just lead to heartbreak. She's already saying cutesy stuff to me already, which honestly makes me feel uncomfortable.

While my feelings are genuinely of confusion, I'm kind of sad in the background. I went outside and kept talking to that new person while I was out on my own. I kept updating her and telling her about how things are going.

If I'm going to take this path with this new person, I need to have all my doubts quelled and I should be ready to end all of the things I enjoy now. I'm not sure about that just yet, though. But I'll see how this pans out.