I Would Never Fall In Love Again Until...

I found her.

That song from Stephen Sanchez kept haunting me throughout the entire day. I guess it haunted me because, deep inside, I feel like I won't love another person until I found another person like "her" again, the person who I think is my soulmate. I thought I found her 2 years ago, and I haven't fallen in love with anyone ever since. I've tried to search for her again today, and I'm still feeling unease from my anxieties this week.

I mostly just continued through my tasks and other things, but I could hear that song playing in the background. When I took a quick nap and woke up, I heard a distant version of that song playing in my head as I awoke to the heat of the afternoon. In the afternoon, I mostly dealt with some minor tasks. Since I got my money from the salary loan, I decided to treat myself at the end of my work shift and went outside to BGC.

I was actually planning on issuing a few proposals for myself and deciding on big life movements/opportunities, and then ratify them. I had this super-productive idea in my head that didn't really come into fruition since I spent some time finding a proper seat and, while the seat I got was comfortable, the environment wasn't fully conductive. Plus, I was feeling sick and kept sneezing, also I got too distracted to get a significant amount of work done. Still, I tried to make the most out of it. I've decided on a few things and got some things done, including the documentation of my past "versions" and what I want my future version to be, I updated my mood calendar, and I made a few decisions. After all that was done, I talked to an artist I knew on Twitter and asked them to commission a new artwork for me. Then I went to BGC Uptown to finally try that hakaw dish I've been wanting to eat. I ate at Tim Ho Wan and it was surprisingly affordable, so I ordered 2 sets of hakaw and congee, as well as salted egg yolk custard buns for my dinner. The hakaw was really nice, but I enjoyed the congee more because I feel like I'm gonna get a cold. I had the rest of my order for take-out and ate some at home.

By the late evening, I was still mostly left alone and just found a cinema to watch Dune 2 on, since I fully expected that I'll be watching it alone. I ordered a ticket for tomorrow and ended the day there. I did a lot this day but it all felt really hollow. Like something was missing from my day.