Apr 3, 2024

Disappointment was my main feeling today, even though it didn't affect me all that much. I had come to learn that I was not eligible for my company's certification incentive program, meaning that my AWS certification wasn't gonna be shouldered. Although, to be fair, I took this certification for myself. (And mostly because I rejected a job offer worth around 80K, and I have to prove myself to be better).

Regardless, I'm not going to let this put a dent in my pursuit for a more involved role in the cloud in the future. I am still sick of the daily support tasks I go through every day, and today was no exception. It wasn't a nice feeling having to work through those.

I'm still going to pursue my AWS certification path, with my next being Solutions Architect - Associate. I'm on my own for this, sadly.

My day continued as normal, with me being mostly busy in the morning. I got into VHH late because I had a lot to do, even patching and I got into a call with the company CTO. I even bought lunch for myself very early today and ate lunch ahead of schedule. When I got into VHH, it was just your usual VHH call, with us talking about K-Pop and other things.

By the evening, I didn't do much and I felt so sleepy. I just slept for the bulk of it to recoup my sleep from staying up late until 5 a.m. with someone. I even treated them and I slept late because I had to treat them to food, and food arrived late. After waking up, I just talked to some friends and reconnected with a friend on Instagram that I haven't talked to in a while, and I even replied to a few messages from friends.

All in all, today was a huge letdown, but it actually didn't affect my mood. Which is weird. I somehow logically separated my disappointment from my overall mood for the day. I didn't feel sad or dismayed, I was fine somehow. Maybe it's because I kind of expected that this specific disappointment will happen.