Apr 15, 2024

Today was absolutely horrible. I don't know why, but I couldn't sleep since last Sunday and I couldn't really sleep, even though I've tried. I got that weird acid feeling while trying to sleep, so instead of sleeping, I went outside to buy a breakfast meal that won't trigger my acid reflux. I went outside to get some wheat bread, non-fat yoghurt, and spread. I basically had those as my only things to eat for the entire day.

Work began and I had a pretty light workload today. Things were supposedly doing okay. I got into VHH early with someone and around lunchtime, I was just watching a few episodes of The Office with them. In my break, we had time to play Left 4 Dead 2 and we had a difficult time trying to kill the zombies in the carnival stage. It was pretty weird since I wasn't playing L4D with Rachel nor Exavier and no one is spilling tea while the game was going on. Left 4 Dead 2 is one of my "therapy games" where I just turn off my brain and rant, talk about random things to my friends. But this time, things were fairly focused on the game. I guess my lack of sleep hampered my skills because we died twice until our lunch breaks were up.

By the afternoon, we were just watching random things in VHH and they even streamed a Dan & Phil video. At the end of our shifts, we were watching a video from Wowman until they asked a question about people staying in Mandela County and why they don't just leave. I gave my opinion in that I understand why they would stay there, but I also voiced my own viewpoint that I would also leave from there. That led to a really bad argument that made me anxious. Even playing SSX Tricky won't calm my nerves and we just had an argument, even though I wasn't trying to start one. We eventually both went to sleep and ended the day there.

Even though there were some bad things that happened today, I tried my best to handle it and I can say that I did well, despite the overwhelming pressure from not being able to sleep.