Apr 16, 2024

My sleeping schedule was in all kinds of whack today since I slept for the entirety of the evening yesterday. I woke up at around 11:56 with a horrible, throbbing headache. It was the worst headache I've had in months. Still, I thought I was just going to stay up for a few hours to work on other things like review some AWS things for my upcoming exam, but then my friends messaged me asking if I'm still awake. Pretty soon we were in a call.

They accompanied me for a bit, I playing some random videos and even a Stephanie Soo video that we watched while eating. It quickly became 4 a.m. and I had to leave from the call to try and get some rest.

I couldn't get some rest. And since my circadian rhythm is fucked up, I just had breakfast. I haven't eaten anything good since yesterday, and throughout the whole night, I was just eating bread and yoghurt. So I got myself a very hearty breakfast and that gave me enough energy by 7 a.m. to tackle the day. I had a lot of stuff going on at work. I felt a little exhausted early on, but I still tried to power through.

Throughout the entire day and afternoon, I remembered how painful it was 2 years ago to let go of this person, and while I had let go of a distant version of them, remembering it all while playing death bed by Powfu made me cry a bit. It wasn't an ugly cry and it was over in a span of less than 30 minutes, but I should be more careful exploring that part of my history because I still remember it all too well.

Work continued, I got busy with a lot of various things and work eventually ended. I tried my best to sleep. I got a few naps in here and there, and I even had my friends message me about wanting to be back in a call. After I saw that message, I couldn't really sleep anymore and just continued my night doing random things.