sentiment_satisfied
Apr 29, 2024
Mon
I had a really big mess-up this morning that made me not sleep at all. While I accompanied someone for VHH, I was busy in the background fixing this thing and I literally was on the verge of crying because this was the largest fuck-up I've ever had. I spent the entire night trying to fix it and, even though I left VHH early morning, I was still fixing it.
By the grace of God, I was able to fix things and it didn't really cause a big issue, if any at all. I got myself breakfast in the morning to celebrate me getting out of that horrible situation. Still, I was mostly sleep deprived today and I had a very busy morning. I had a very long call and a lot of things to get done in the morning. Thankfully, I was able to complete my morning tasks and, by lunch, I was able to be in VHH with someone as we continued our afternoon shifts.
It was really horrible in the afternoon because I've been busy and stressed all day, and I had so much stuff for my plate remaining. Things piled up and multiple projects had horrible deadlines that I just was put into. It was really unfair for my side and I still came out on top, but it was just so bad that I had to feel extreme mental exhaustion on top of my ongoing physical exhaustion. I'm glad I handled my emotions throughout it, though, and I was just vibing to OPM and other fun music by the afternoon. While someone was out or sleeping, I was just singing songs to help my mood. By afternoon, I kept passing out and I felt a sense of vertigo. It was like I was going to puke. My body physically could not handle the stress I had going on and I had to lie down to feel a bit okay. Thankfully, it wasn't long until my shift ended and I was able to breathe a sigh of relief.
I was still in VHH with someone and she suggested that I search for something scary or a game we both can play that's like Left 4 Dead 2. She then left VHH very early and that ended our day together. After having dinner with my sister, I just slept and woke up at 2 a.m. the following day. This day was extremely exhausting and tiring, but I didn't feel down in some day, so I'm glad I came out on top of it.