Jun 2, 2024

Nothing much happened on Sunday, but I could walk on my own two feet again today. But not much aside from that, initially. I recall playing Overwatch 2 in the early morning and then sleeping. In the afternoon, nothing much happened aside from playing Apex Legends on Linux. I played a few rounds, and the main map of the afternoon was World's Edge. Playing that map made me a bit sad because I remember playing this game, on this map, with friends like Jaze, Batao, and Loy a few years ago. It made me a bit sad, but it was okay. I didn't win a battle royale match and just ended the game after losing around late game. I ate dinner after that.

In the evening, someone messaged me that we would play Sons of the Forest and that we should build a base. I was still eating dinner, so I finished that first but I agreed to play with her. I also did other things and then invited them to a game. Since I expected that they would take a while to reply, I started up Overwatch and said that I would take a while since I got into a match. They felt annoyed and expressed frustration that I was taking revenge upon them. But in reality, I just decided not to make them a priority anymore. I eventually got into a real game of competitive and set them aside, saying that I'd close Discord since I didn't want to be distracted. I treated them as a normal friend and prioritized something else, as I usually do with my other friends. They didn't really understand the concept and thought that I was just being vengeful and I was making an effort to frustrate them.

I told them that this is what they wanted, they wanted just a friend that they could play games with. I said I would agree, but I would game on my terms, as I do with all my other friends. I would give them no special treatment and I wouldn't make them a priority. They got special treatment for me for a long time and they never got the usual friend treatment, which must have surprised them because of how uncaring I was, but it was just me prioritizing myself. They said they were crying hard during the whole argument. And then they said that all they were doing was for me, that I shouldn't waste my talents and my hours on them, but I wasn't buying this fake praise. To be fair, I already know I'm wasting my time on this useless endeavor, but I knowingly continue with it regardless. They also told me that I could do so much more, and I refuted that by saying that I already do a lot while having them by my side. We eventually reached a stalemate when I told them that I was fine as I was, and they gave me the freedom to just do whatever I wanted since I was old enough. The only change was that I would accompany them for 2 hours in BFT, which seemed okay with me. We concluded with that and played Cuphead instead. We finished the stage that had Baroness Von Bon Bon, and we tried to finish the remaining Run 'n Gun level we had missed, but we couldn't finish it so we just took a rest from the game. We continued our time in VHH through the start of their BFT shift.