Back by Popular Demand

Today was shaped to be like the ones that came before: I'd be sad, lonely, and crying because someone and I weren't talking anymore. I couldn't sleep the night before because of gaming reasons and this night actually was a very dangerous night to stay awake on because I've been sleep-deprived for a few days now. My sleep schedule is out of whack and I just wasted my time in the early morning.

Still, I had work to do and I timed in early since I was already awake. I did my morning tasks and my morning quickly passed. Then someone messaged me regarding my obligations for the upcoming company event. I agreed and the conversation ended there. I then had a thought of asking them what was happening, like what was going on between us. I had this whole internal debate going on and I just wondered if I should make this next decision. I fought against it, then ultimately decided that I couldn't handle the deafening quiet and reached out. I asked them "What's happening" and they immediately replied on Discord.

We got back into talking, although it was awkward at first. It was weird seeing them in my chatbox again so soon. And not long after that, we got into VHH again. I was still not over the events that transpired last Sunday so I told them about it. They tried to tell me that I didn't need the job anyway, and I picked up on that as an attempt to gaslight me. On my side, I did agree to the job that they endorsed me for, and we had a verbal agreement. To have such a firm understanding and for that to be thrown away so quickly seems like an attempt to gaslight me into thinking that it was never necessary in the first place, thus making me question my original stance on it and if it was worth anything. I never got my apology and someone disconnected from VHH. We argued about it continuously, with their main defense being that I used the word "gaslighting" incorrectly and that they threw out my endorsement because it was a lashing out against me. We kept arguing until both of us get tired. We talked about other topics until our work ended.

After my shift, I essentially just had free time. I wanted to sleep (and finish the game I was playing) but I felt weird because I wasn't sure where someone and I belonged. I wondered what she would be doing after work and she said nothing, just playing a mobile game. I wanted to finish my game and sleep, so I said to them, "See you around." And then they called me out and said that was what I was playing. I had a feeling they were hiding something from me, but I relented and asked them if they were free to play a game. I eventually got them to join VHH with me. Then they revealed to me that they were hiding from Nicole because they asked her to play Cuphead with them in the evening. I feel a little betrayed because what they said was a lie and I eventually found out. But whatever, I continued and offered them a few games to play with like TEKKEN, and Stardew, and we settled on It Takes Two. But then I told them about Nicole and showed them Sky: Children of the Light. They went back into the game and added me as a friend there, then we moved to Nicole's server to hang out and stuff. We continued to play on her server, just collecting missing children for upgrading our wings and other things. By the end, someone had to leave and called it a night. They still tried to talk to me, but I didn't send my reply and I was talking to Nicole. She remarked about how I took Ella from her but she said it was all good.

I remained in Nicole's server for a while and we finished Eden, then I was able to ascend fairly quickly. I "finished the game" upon doing that and had my character be reborn. I thanked Nicole for helping me out after that and I went to sleep to recover.