Dec 19, 2024

This day was just STRESSFUL! It even started stressful! We suffered a power outage just as I was getting to sleep! I really hoped to start my last day of work for the year on a good night's rest but I had to stay up until the electricity came back, which was 30 minutes later. But I wasn't able to sleep until 3-4 a.m. or so. Also, in the middle of the night, I just found myself singing to the Eraserheads "Ang Huling El Bimbo" for some reason. My day started out groggy because I slept late but I was able to get on top of things quickly. This was my last day at work for the year so I had to do my best. I just need to complete all of today's tasks, and it's my holiday break by tomorrow. I resume work on the 2nd of January next year. So today started out with me fixing a lot of things and coordinating with people on 2 different chat platforms. My sister and I were able to order McDonald's for the morning and I was able to eat some breakfast, she even treated our coffee for today. I got a lighter blend of coffee today instead of the heart-attack-inducing one I drank yesterday. Then it was off to me focusing on my work. My stress really ramped up from there, I didn't even have the time to go out or rest for lunch because I was actively monitoring something, and responding to those concerns as fast as I can. While working, I sang the lyrics to Leizel Garcia's "Gisingin Ang Puso" out of the blue. I don't know why, but I think it has to do with it being my last day of work for the year and remembering that someone isn't here anymore. I worked alongside them for most of the year and, here I am now, at the end, without them. The lyrics really reflect a lot of heartbreak and I can see why my songs have been about loss or heartbreak. I don't even sing this song that much, if at all, but I was just really affixed to it on a random day. Since my sister still had her lunch break, she went inside my room to chill for a while and I continued to sing along to songs, even finding instrumental tracks on YouTube when nothing was happening. The people outside our house also sang karaoke, so maybe that's why. We sang along to some OPM songs and Taylor Swift songs. I really enjoyed singing "Our Song" and I enjoyed singing some of her early songs, which I'm surprised I have mostly memorized. After that short musical break, it was back to me focusing and even getting into a call in the afternoon. My stress really increased in the afternoon as I was under a lot of pressure to get something fixed immediately and a lot of people were asking for my attention. I focused on my main task, though, and dealt with the other things afterward. It was stressful, but I'm glad I got everything done in the end. I didn't know what to celebrate with at the end of the day, so I just treated myself to any food I wanted. Since I was still stressed out, I wanted something that I'll like and got Burger King for dinner. I uninstalled my workplace chat app afterward and disabled notifs for the other app so I can fully enjoy my Christmas break. I got my food and, only at that moment, did I think of ordering pizza. But whatever. For the rest of the evening, it was mostly me watching Gangnam Style Chinese memes on IG Reels, watching other YT videos, and making fun of Naomi as she was going to confess to the guy she likes at their Christmas party tomorrow. With all that fun, all of my stress for the day just dissipated. I'm glad I was able to do everything I was asked of me and today was a little bittersweet. I reached the "end" of my work journey for this year and I don't have someone to celebrate it with. It sucks, but whatever. I hope I can celebrate it better next year.