Dec 31, 2024

Today was the last year of 2024. It was marked with an extremely bad start with me still angry and annoyed at my sister and Mom for what happened last night. I arrived home in the pouring rain and scrolled on my phone for a bit before going to bed. In the morning, things were awfully quiet and I passed the time just being in my room for the most part. And then I decided to just go out today and spend New Year's Eve somewhere else. Eventually, my mom talked to me and I basically lashed out at them, and then this big fight occurred. Things get out of hand but I don't let up and I don't flinch from what happened. I just remained firm in the place I was standing at and reaffirmed my point because I had suffered a lot and I just wanted a sorry for what had happened. After a lot of crying and shouting, eventually, my Mom got out of the room and my sister and I talked for a bit before they finally apologized to me. My anger dissipates after they apologize and I try my best to feel the sincerity of it. Things get "okay enough" between my sister and I and she asks me to talk to Mom instead. My Mom and I then have a lengthy talk about the past and I really push her to apologize for what happened in the past and that I want her to appreciate my efforts in still being successful despite being a college dropout. She admits that it's her biggest regret in life to not have me finish school and asks me to continue it but I disagree and I'll continue pursuing my career instead. She also says that she's proud of me because I did turn out okay despite dropping out and that was enough for me to feel okay. Even though dropping out of college is probably the biggest scar I have in life, I always reaffirm to myself and everyone that I was able to succeed regardless of my past circumstances. I didn't end up in a job I hated or any low-effort job, and I instead pursued my dream of being an administrator of many computers, and that's success for me. I just wanted my Mom to appreciate my own efforts. Our talk goes on and then we make up after that. For the evening, I mostly just relaxed and even napped for a bit. I watched some Mrwhosetheboss videos at night and my sister eventually came in to hug me and apologize sincerely, and then I told them that everything can be talked/reasoned out. After that, our cousins came upstairs and set the food on the table. We took a lot of photos together and talked a lot amongst ourselves. I think we were 13, all in all, in the living room and we were a lot. At around the end of 11 o'clock, we all went up to the rooftop to light fireworks that we had bought and some sparklers that we had. We celebrated the countdown and I was glad to have this day turn out right. 2024 was kind of like this day, some parts of it were absolute hell to go through and I don't want to experience it all again, but I'm glad that things eventually got resolved and I'm back to celebrating New Year's with my family again.