Jun 3, 2025

Today started with me having my stomach churn. I felt something bad, but I didn't know that it would be happening to me. I couldn't sleep much and I was tossing and turning in bed as my stomach started to ache really bad. I woke up feeling so tired and exhausted, despite getting my usual 5-or-so-hours of sleep.

I decided on whether or not I'd take a sick leave for work, but I decided against it. I just had to power through today because I have 2 leaves in the upcoming week. I was talking to a friend by this time and they were really nice and friendly. In the morning, it seemed that today was just going to go great, despite my stomachache. But things kind of took a turn for the worse come afternoon.

Part of me knew I screwed up and, while I tried to apologize, I don't think my apologies were accepted. There was this looming feeling that everything's starting to crumble and my stomachache had devolved into full on diarrhea making me super thirsty and tired. I didn't show that to anyone but I was trying my best to nurse myself in the background while juggling between work, my health, and other things.

I got myself Pocari Sweat and some medicine, and I also got myself lugaw to feel better because I haven't eaten anything all day. I only ate a bit, but didn't have much appetite as my stomach was giving me the worst time. I kept going back and forth to the bathroom and kept getting tired. I just felt so beaten up today and it's kind of sad that I just found myself in another situation like this again. Things just feel really broken today in a way that probably won't be repaired. Work continued on and I tried to do as much as I can despite being bedridden and going back and forth in the bathroom.

After my shift ended, I continued to just get some more sleep. I just decided to get my health back up, despite still having stomachache and diarrhea the whole night. I tried to catch up with my journal entries and other things just to salvage the day and stop it into turning to an awful day.

At the end of the day, I saw a video on IG Reels about how people having a rough year, thinking that 2025 would be a good year and finding themselves sad by June. I also read a comment about a person saying that they lost so many people and broke so many relationships, and I can't help but laugh and feel so sad about it because I could relate. I just tried my best to finish up my journal entries after that.