Cried for the first time in a while

Thursday was the day we’d finally play the new Roots update in Peak! My friends, Luan, and I got into our usual call and played the new Roots biome for a while. It was so fun and a bit scary since we found out that there were zombies and this new fungus/spore status effect. We also found a few new items in the game like this checkpoint flag that my friends used because they were being chased by a zombie version of her. She also used this new Book of Bones item and they died shortly afterward because we bounced on this big mushroom trampoline thing.

We couldn’t get past the new Roots biome at all, so we just played R.E.P.O. instead and we had fun playing a few rounds of it. We finally got the tea set in the museum loaded up for once, and we faced off a bunch of new enemies in the game. It was pretty fun and we learned some of the mechanics of the new Loom monster which we had fun with. We played for a while and then had to leave because we all had other things to do.

My usual workday followed and I just did my usual round of tasks. Nothing much went on for my shift aside from a usual workday.

In the evening, my friends and I got into a call and I shared my phone screen. I showed her a few stuff on my phone, mainly the Kidz Bop version of Tears and we watched a few visualizers from The Life of A Showgirl in the stream. I showed her this automation I had set up on my phone where I change the wallpaper automatically and my friends just flat-out rejected it and said that they didn’t care about it. Ouch, I was pretty hurt from it. It was a cool thing that I wanted to share and I just said that this was the reason why I don’t share much with her and I said that I’ll find other people to share this with.

It really ticked me off and I instantly remembered how LK said to me that her boyfriend was her safe space and it made me immediately cry. It was such a big cry, too, and I haven’t cried for the past week or so. I put up with her so much and I genuinely try to give a shit even though I really don’t give a shit about some of her things like DotA 2. I just kept crying and crying, and we watched an Edvasian video and streamed a few videos while I was crying in the background. My friends didn’t notice it that much and I just made excuses like my foot sleeping or my nose being clogged when I was actually crying hard in the background.

She did try to save the situation and asked me a few things about my wallpaper, like why I change it and stuff, but the damage was already done and they didn’t say sorry at all. We just streamed this FNaF timeline video at the end of the day.