An Emotional Rollercoaster

Holy shit Tuesday started with my commute to work being one fucking bad omen. I woke up on time but it was raining and I had to bring in the laundry that was left out to dry all by myself. I didn't have breakfast or what and my stomach was hurting so bad, but I still pushed through my morning. I talked to someone a bit while I was booking a ride and I was able to publish my journal entry and some code changes to my site, so that made my morning a little productive.

Booking a ride took so long, almost an hour of just waiting and hoping to get a ride. Someone also asked if I had died, which was kind of a bad omen as I almost could have died. But eventually I got 2 rides, one for Angkas and in Joyride. Somehow, I forgot to cancel the Joyride one because I was actually waiting for the Angkas one. The Joyride driver arrived first, somehow, and I had to cancel the Angkas ride which I deeply regretted.

The Joyride commute was TOTAL FUCKING HELL. The driver took so many wrong turns, ignored GPS directions, and we even almost crashed 2 times. He was also doing this strange and weird thing of spreading his legs and driving so slowly. Even one motorcyclist on the SLEX was looking at us and I was so terrified for my life because we could crash or have a fatal road accident at any minute. We drove through and we got a few vehicles honking at us because he was leaving so much space between us and the next car. He was totally out of it and only snapped out of it when I tried to guide him to an alternate route that I believed is much safer and walkable.

In the end, I had to ask him to drop me off early and I even had to make an excuse about how the drop-off point was hard to drop off passengers or some shit. But in reality, I was so shaken and scared for my life. I just wanted to walk and process things while on the way to work.

Work was pretty much quiet, thankfully, and I even helped out a teammate and solved a problem on my own. It was a pretty big highlight of my day, honestly. For lunch, I wanted to get some omurice because I saw it yesterday while watching Frieren so I decided to walk to CoCo Ichibanya in Glorietta for my lunch. After that, since I still had this “any menu item free”-thing from Starbucks Rewards, I just claimed it and got a white chocolate mocha that was a venti as a pick-me-up. I also just chilled for a while and finished my drink during lunchtime.

Work in the afternoon was pretty okay but a bit frustrating since I couldn't complete what I was working on, but it was functional enough to a degree. This kind of continued the chain of [GOOD THING] happening and then [BAD THING] happening throughout my day. But eventually, I was finished with work as my work day had ended.

By that point, I'm not sure why, but the stresses of the day kind of just piled up on me. Thankfully, I had this “birthday freebie” thing from Timezone wherein I got 500 Pesos worth of Powerload because it was my birthday recently. I was excited to play at Timezone to just cool off BUT I had forgotten my Wangan Midnight card! I checked my wallet and it wasn't there! Either I left it at home or I totally lost it, which just made me want to fall to my knees. I didn't give up, though, and I just claimed the free 500 Pesos Powerload and played a few games. I even played 1 round of bowling because I was so frustrated and I'm glad I did because I got 2 strikes in 1 bowling game, so that was super cool. I also just relaxed at the nearby massage chair. While resting, I saw a girl that looked like someone, which was pretty neat, but also intrigued me. While I was wrapping up, I saw that Return to Silent Hill (2026) was showing in theaters and I still had time to catch a showing!

I immediately got my tickets at the ticket counter so I could go inside of the movie theater. I got seated and I enjoyed watching the movie for a bit, even ordering an extra side dish of bread with a cheese dip that somehow cost me 250 Pesos, but it was fine. All was going well until there was a couple that sat next to me, which was shocking because, while I was picking out the seats at the counter, I had absolutely no one in my entire row. Here comes this dude and his girlfriend which somehow just made me envious as usual. The dude also coughs throughout the entire film! He coughed every 5 minutes or so, it was honestly downright annoying. This dude with his stature, and his rudeness can get a girlfriend to watch Silent Hill on a random Tuesday night. I saw him caress her hands, too. And here I am, single with fucking no one to watch this shit with. Fuck me, fucking hell. This day was honestly too much and I was already so over it. The film wasn't that great either, but I appreciated some parts that tied into the video game. It kind of just made me want to play the game, or watch someone play the game while I streamed it.

I was just done by the end of the day. Emotionally done. I wanted to cry so bad because I had such a rough day, but I couldn't find myself to. It was a total chain of [GOOD THING] happening and then [BAD THING] happening:

• Got 10 hours of sleep
• Almost got killed on my morning commute
• Complete an important task at the start of the day
• Fail to complete my main task for the day
• Got 500 Pesos worth of Powerload
• Forgot to bring my Banapassport so I couldn't play the arcade game I wanted
• Got to watch a movie
• The guy next to me kept coughing and I got jealous he had someone to watch with

The only saving graces of this day was that my commute home wasn't that memorable and I got a ride fairly-quickly. Plus my sister cooked food for me when I got home, so that was really nice of her. I also had enough time left in the day to decompress and process my thoughts. Ultimately, I didn't know where to put my mood for today. It was such a rollercoaster, but since I weigh BOTH the good things and bad things that happened now, I just feel like I'll put it as a good day regardless. Today was pretty freakin' weird, though. And the whole time, I kept thinking of how I ended up on this timeline. But that's a blog post for future me to write about.