May 11, 2026

Today was pretty normal and boring, honestly. Surprisingly, I got a lot of sleep last night, which was 10 hours long. I knew I went to bed early but I was still surprised nonetheless. I decided to work on-site today because I wanted to return my work monitor, and I didn't want to be liable for it anyways. I booked a car ride to the office but the driver took a weird route which kind of had them reversing for the first part, but thankfully it was smooth sailing from thereon out.

Work was pretty boring, too. I was just there for my coworkers and they were. One unexpectedly showed up and one didn't show up, which was funny because we ended up looking for them the entire day and wondering if they went AWOL. I had lunch out with them, then we grabbed some coffee and I had some Dubai chocolate cupcake-thing, which was funny but also kind of delicious. I also tried that new thing at Marugame Udon, it was this bolognese thing and I absolutely hated it. It was so weird, even for me. It was actually the first time where I had a lot of leftovers there.

For the afternoon, work just passed by. I focused on a few things. For some reason, I just felt angry and also sad because I'm not working for my wife and kids, I'm just working for myself and I want that part of my life to change. It was quelled a bit when I got to talk to Mon and that cooled me off for a while. My workday passed and I had Coco Ichibanya with my coworker before leaving for my house.

I talked to my sister when I got home and I still felt that sting of being lonely into the late evening. I just felt so sad and angry that other people were doing fun stuff that I've never done—go on cute dates, have a romantic partner kiss them, that sort of shit.

In the late evening, I came up with the most brilliant idea: 1 hour per day, collectively, to just think and brainstorm what can I do to achieve my dreams, and if possible, I'd act upon those ideas. I went to sleep satisfied with that plan.